The Backlight Blues

Pink and blue highlighters in the sky

Purple silver linings

Gradual steady change 

happening in front of your eyes 

The Backlight Blues

It is that time of the day where grasping your balance seems possible 

The Backlight Blues

like to play twice a day

to remind you of the times 

When the city glittered

And you were in a deep high 

That loosened the line

Between reality and truth

-Sabrina Perri

A Poem I Wrote for a Self Image Prompt

When I look at you in the mirror

I see a woman, a young woman

with a soul that has lived many lives, and many more to go 

She has the body of fighter

One who always gets back up 

The gray strands prove you learn from

your mistakes, and you carry on

Less worried about how others see you through your looking glass

When I look at you in the mirror,

I envision everything you want for yourself

You will always have something in your hand

Whether it’s is a notebook and pen, a pocketbook

Your camera and a ring-light,

The car key and a doggie, 

You are abundant. 

You give and receive.

You put the work in, even if you don’t realize it

When I look at you in the mirror,

I want to tell you

you do not have to push yourself 

Rather take a rest to get back to center

There, you can focus and enter

Back into your groove

Your rhythm, It doesn’t have to be smooth

If you just let whatever emotions and pain you feel move through you 

Giving you a reason to heal,

To hope through the mope 

When I look at you in the mirror

I see all your ancestors on your face

and their strength helping you into a better place

I see your angels protecting you with their feathers and wings

I see your spirit guides holding keys and torches 

I see your lost loved ones by your side 

and you look into the mirror and 

You see me

Hi, I am yourSelf. 

Doors Closed – A Poem by Sabrina Perri

Go away. I mean it. 

Go away. 

I was desperate to put up a fight, 

Yet you walked out. 

Door Closed. 

Is that not what you wanted?

Oh, I do not know. 

Door Closed.

My shadow narrows from the light

laughing at me. 

Now, you go away. 

That is an order. 

Oh, please, you with your disorder. 

Door Closed.

Through the peephole,

I see them walking back into their world.

Desperate to reach out, 

I turned around,

back inside myself.

The Door Closed,

and I am left with my shadow. 

Or, is my shadow left with me?

You follow me a lot.

I have to go wherever you go.

Thank you for taking me many places. 

Were you sent here?

By the Light.

By the Light?

By the Light. 

You closed the door on the light. 

Did not.

Did, too, in the night. 

I swear with all my might.

You cannot push me out.

There is no door to close now.

Stuck in your room.

Filling yourself with doom. 

You booted everyone away.

Pay or Decay.

I look down at my shadow. 

Dark side is right. 

I have to use my might 

and hold loved ones tight 

Driving Dream Meaning and Interpretation

Who else has had a dream behind the wheel of the car? Or, were you on the passenger looking out the window? Driving dreams may feel like they are ordinary, but reveal a lot about our sense of control. As someone who can exhibit controlling qualities, I have recurring dreams about driving. 

The first driving dream I remember has been the most significant to date. In the dream, I sat in the backseat of a ride share car, yet no one was in the driver’s seat. The car seemed to be driving downhill. Anxious from the risk of getting into a car accident, I shimmy myself over the arm rest, sink my legs down, and I grasp the wheel. It took me a couple seconds to feel in control over the car, yet I was able to without creating a catastrophe. The road ahead levels out when the dream ends. 

Driving has always been a symbol of independence for me. After experiencing this driving dream, I changed gears and steered towards finding the meaning. My 12,000 Dreams interpreted book says that:

“Driving signifies unjust criticism of your seeming extravagance. You will be compelled to do things that appear undignified. To dream of driving a public cab denotes menial labor with little chance for advancement.  Driven by others, you will profit by superior knowledge of the world and will always find some path through difficult.”

Since the way of the road was important to me in the dream, I researched the meaning of roads as well. 12,000 Dreams denotes that traveling over a rough, unknown road suggests new undertakings that will bring little but grief and loss of time. Road has trees and flowers? Unexpected fortune and pleasant energy awaits. If you have a friend with you on the road, you will have success in cultivating an ideal home and family. 

Psychology Today posted an article by Michelle Carr about common occurrences of “out-of-control” dreams. 40% of car related dreams focus on car trouble, whether it is a breakdown or situational, my dream starting in the back seat for example. The article exactly says “The frequent occurrence of these car trouble dreams that were not drawn from waking life lends some support to the idea that dreaming is metaphorical, and that out-of-control cars represent a feeling of being out of control in one’s life.” Once I finished reading the article, I looked over a couple dream dictionary sources for driving. dreamingandsleeping.com restated that driving reflects the control you have over your own life, and your dream advises that you are the only person who is responsible for your own decisions and actions. “It means you should have plans and goals in your life and you should fight to reach them.” The next part of the definition discusses if no one is in the car, you feel lonely and crave support from people you admire and/or love. 

After looking over my research, I discovered the meaning behind my dream about taking control of a driving car. Since I started out in the backseat of my ride share, I felt like I was not in control over my surroundings. Not having a driver was on purpose (thanks subconscious!), because it gave me the motivation to talk control over the wheel. During the time of my life when this dream occurred, I was adjusting to living in a new city on my own. I struggled with loneliness and an unstable form of income, and felt powerless in my situation. Yet, I harnessed my strength and recognized that I did in fact have control over my situation. Shimming into the driver seat was an easy challenge to overcome once I stopped overthinking my options for an ‘escape.’ I consider myself, now and when the dream occurred, a decent driver. A decent driver that knows when to take full control when the road ahead looks unfamiliar. When I was in the dream’s driver seat and noticed the road leveling out, my subconscious reassured me that having control of myself and my decisions will stabilize my mind and my current situation. The 12,000 Dreams Interpreted books defines unknown roads as a symbol for new endeavors that will lead to grief and wasted time. I personally do not believe with the loss of time part of the definition applies to all dreams about unknown roads. Yes, you can experience loss of time when you participate in a situation that does not align with what you need or what is best for you; however, it is an important part of life to try things even if you figure out that job, hobby, or person is not aligned for you. I also believe grieving is not a waste a time, but an essential part of human existence. With that said, I was happy to experience this dream and happy to discover support from my higher self. 

To reiterate my discoveries, driving dreams indicate a need to take control over your actions, thoughts, and your role in a situation. If you are alone in the car, it indicates loneliness in your waking life. Finally, driving on an unknown road denotes the next phase or cycle of your life that has its ups and downs. This dream interpretation taught me a lot about myself that I was consciously experiencing, and I am so happy I can share it with the world. I hope my readers enjoy. Keep dreaming! 

References and Resources:

Carr, M. C. (2020, June 29). Out-of-Control Car Dreams are Surprisingly Common. Psychologytoday.Com. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/dream-factory/202006/out-control-car-dreams-are-surprisingly-common

Dream Bible – Dream Interpretation of Driving. (n.d.). Dreambible.Com. Retrieved September 14, 2021, from http://www.dreambible.com/search.php?q=Driving

Shields, L., Miller, G. H., & Skomal, L. (2011). 12,000 Dreams Interpreted: A New Edition for the 21st Century (Revised, Updated ed.). Sterling.

Sleeping, D. A. (2019, November 8). Dreams about Driving – Interpretation and Meaning. Dreaming and Sleeping. https://dreamingandsleeping.com/dreams-about-driving-interpretation-and-meaning/

An Example of Sabrina’s Dream Interpretation Reading

Hello Everyone!

Recently, I added “Dream Interpretations” to my reading shop. I have had a couple wonderful clients book with me about a dream or several dreams. I am fortunate to use one of my client’s reading as an example to show how I go about the reading. Before I start diving into my client’s previous reading, the dream reading happens in two parts. The first part of the reading involves my client describing the dream from their memory with as many details as possible. The more you give me, the better! After I receive the dream description, I do my research on specific details from the dream. I compile all the different meanings for each symbol, then start the second part of the interpretation. I perform a 1-1-1 card spreading using 1 Tarot Card, 1 Animal Spirit Card, and 1 Archangel Message where I ask the cards to clarify what is subconsciously going on with the client. Once I look over the cards, I write out the interpretation of the cards and how they apply to the messages from your dream. I conclude the reading with advice on how to confront the issue(s) from the dream in their day to day life. Okay, enough about how the reading goes, let me show you!

For this example, I will give a brief description of my client. She is in her late 20s and identifies as a lesbian. She was having a reoccurring dream about marrying their crush, who happens to be their boss’ daughter. Each time they get married, the marriage happens after odd circumstances. One example of these circumstances is the crush needed to get married to my client for her health insurance. The wedding’s always happen at the boss’ home, and it is a small intimate wedding.

“When I was researching the dream meaning of seeing your boss in your dreams, I found something interesting to note. To see your boss in your dream may indicate your over-involvement or obsession with your work. Since your dream does not pertain to your work itself rather your relationship with your boss and her family, you are over-involved in their life in a way. I think it is more on the lines that you are obsessed with their mother daughter dynamic, which is something you want to achieve. What I want to tell you is no mom-kid dynamic is the same. The support that your boss gives your crush is something that I believe you may be jealous of in a way, which I do not think there is inherently something wrong with. I think it is common to be jealous of other people’s parental support, and this is another thing you need to grief. You may not even be upset with how your parents have supported your choices, but they did not reach an expectation you set for yourself.”

“Let us start now with your unrequited crush on your boss’ daughter. You repetition of your dreams is a literal reflection of your feelings towards her. When you think about someone you like often, which naturally happens when you have romantic feelings, that they pop up in your dream. In your dreams, some of them have been of her breaking up with her partner, close to dying, and issues of acceptance of who you love; they are all projections of your own feelings towards her. You are actually sabotaging yourself from letting this go. Your dreams of her are projections of your own feelings. Now, the almost arranged marriage dreams. I think they represent this 2 becoming 1 aspect. I think having a crush on your boss’ daughter and not putting your needs first in all of the dreams with her shows that you are compromising yourself for the needs of others. One particular symbol represents this, and it is the white dress. White can be a purifying, but it can also “white wash” meaning cover up or sweep things under the rug. All the dreams do not have you and her dating before marrying, very similar to the timeline of an arranged marriage. You need to detach yourself from being a temporary fix for other people’s problems. You deserve better than that. All of the weddings happening in the spring time represent new beginnings. Warmth is all around you, and it is time to cultivate your fruitful future in love.”

“A big thing that speaks to me is the need to grief what could have been. Grief is not exclusive to someone dying. We have to grief all loses and all the things that could have been. This is something that I feel like your subconscious is pushing you to start doing. I think a way to look at this positively is your crush is a representation of what you are looking for in a partner. It is time to focus less on hoping this crush somehow ending up with you over circumstances not relating to actually falling in love at all. I think you are really focused on a partner who will please the people closest to you, and you need to start focusing on finding a partner that will please all the needs you want from love. Your love life is exactly that YOURS. Make your experiences unique to you. It will help you find a deeper source of self love that will allow you to be vulnerable in love.” 

“Now for the cards. Your tarot card is the 2 of Pentacles! You will be working on pulling back on how much you extend yourself to others. It is okay to set boundaries and limits for yourself on how much you want to do for the people closest to you. This adjustment will actually make you realize how resourceful and flexible you are! You are trying really hard to balancing life, and you are doing a great job! Let go of your inability to be able to provide for your crush in the ways you cannot. Your providing spirit will have a chance to thrive in a loving relationship. You just need be focused adapting to the changes in your life and working on making yourself your first priority.”

“Your animal spirit card is the Tarantula! You are at a crossroads and you are going to be claiming your life’s purpose. The habit of putting other’s needs before your own causes you to sidetrack at times, yet your inner voice is begging you to refocus your energy. It is time to weave a web that will catch all your manifestations, whether love, career, health, etc. The tarantula energy hovers around you with patience and calmness, knowing that you will make the right decisions. Until you start going after what truly makes you happy, satisfaction from your life will be fleeting. This is a good time to start journaling if you do not do so already. Follow your intuition and let repressed emotions come out. They will help guide you from repeating the past.”

“Your Archangel Oracle card is Life Review! Archangel Jeremiel says “Take inventory of your life, and resolve to change or heal anything that is unbalanced.” This card, to me, speaks to your triplet dreams. The triplets represent your physical, emotional, and spiritual aspects of yourself, particularly when it comes to love. Deep reflection will help you rebalance these three aspects of yourself.”

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed the dream interpretation as much I enjoyed working on it. I cannot wait to do more of these readings in the future.